Through a G.I. Girl's Eyes

Who knew having guts would hurt so bad?

  • 25th November
    2012
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  • 24th November
    2012
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A Million Thank You’s!

I just wanted to take the time to say”Thank You”to all who reached out to me before and after my surgery. Thanks for your messages and replies, the have helped tremendously, especially during this holiday time. A time where everyone gathers together, eats yummy food, and celebrates.

I spent my thanksgiving at home alone. Well not alone the entire day, but there were moments where I was alone. Thanksgiving was held at my sister house and when my mother left to go over there I was alone. My sister lives in an apartment complex on the 5th floor, there are no elevators or “disabled friendly” ramps, so I could not attend. :( I was discharged only a day before, and attempting to climb all those stairs didn’t seem like a good idea. not to mention I was in pain.

So, yes, this time of year can be a little bit of a downer for someone who is recovering from surgery. Especially for someone who likes to go outside and keep busy. I am unfortunately, confined to not keeping busy and somewhat bedridden. :(

Recovery is highly important, when having a part of your bowel removed. You don’t want a leakage and then have to go through an emergency surgery, so you cannot be too careful in taking it easy. :(

I can’t wait for the new year. A new year, and a fresh start.

Once again,”Thank You”so much for your support.

- Nicole

  • 22nd November
    2012
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Feeling the blues…

Its been a week since my surgery. I am now home recovering. Today is Thanksgiving. Everyone is getting together to have a wonderful day around family. And today i feel myself sinking into an abyss of depression. I wanna cry so so bad, but am trying so hard to hold it in until my mom and brother leave to my sisters for dinner and i will be alone. I thought i was handling my surgery really well but now i feel like I’m falling apart.

  • 14th November
    2012
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Hello my fellow crohnies/IBDers,

Today is the day of my surgery. Yes, I’m nervous. Who wouldn’t be… I keep looking at my belly and thinking after today it’ll never look the same again. :( i will have several scars from this day forward. I hope that I can come yo love my scars the way some of my fellow IBDers do. To be able to embrace them and not hate them.

I’m doing my best to stay positive and know that everything will go fine. I know God will be with my every step of the way, and that gives me comfort.

I can’t help but think about how much pain I will be in once I wake up after surgery. :( Definitely something I am dreading but I know I can do this.

The ultimate scary thing is the possibility of complications with healing. I am currently taking a low dose of prednisone and as we know stetiods hinder the body’s ability to heal. I pray for a successful healing and keep my faith in the Lord that his healing.hands will help me through this process.

I’ve been told I have the best surgeon. In her field she is the best at what she does, so much so that other doctors from hospitals around the region come to her to learn her methods. Aside from that she has great beside manner and an amazing personality. She has made me comfortable with deciding to have this surgery from day one.

Well my friends, the next time I write it’ll be post op. Not sure.how soon I’ll be back, but when I do write I’m sure I’ll have lots to share.

I wish you all well tummies and happy guts, and I thank you for all the support. I can’t tell you how much off a difference it makes.

- Nicole

  • 11th November
    2012
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  • 10th November
    2012
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  • 10th November
    2012
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A late night note…

First and foremost I would like to take the time to thank all of those who have reached out to me. It truly has meant a lot to read your responses and messages, and for that I thank you.

Next week is my upcoming surgery. I wish I could say that i could cancel it and not have to go through with it, but the truth is I really need this. It’s completely scary and I’ve been nervous and a little on the stress side thinking about it and then thinking about it some more.

Once again, thank you for reaching out and for your support.

Thanks a bunch,
Nicole

  • 10th November
    2012
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How should I feel?

lovelyday2bme:

Today I was asked if I was feeling well because I look really tired.

I’m unsure how to feel about that statement because I essentially have invisible illnesses But my invisible illnesses are starting to show.

I’ve become very accustomed to people being unaware of when I’m having a not so good health day

And so when someone (other than those closest to me) notices that something is wrong with me, healthwise I never know how to react

(via lifewithautoimmune)

  • 9th November
    2012
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  • 9th November
    2012
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